Reforming for now

[DrKittens]

Always a good sight to see a long-time player wanting to change their attitude on the server. It's really understated how toxic the server can make people's attitude and is something that can easily parallel into real life. Many players and staff find themselves needing to take a break, I think many of us forget that there is always another person on the other end of the T-smoke. That being said, I don't agree that being a "bit of a squeaker" would make the community hate you, it's all about how you approach situations. Many players on the server with young voices grow greatly in the community and in the past have found ways into the staff team. Although I agree the community is toxic, it's all about how you approach situations. It's always about how you percieve your own actions, others players didn't get you CT-banned, you took an action upon yourself to break the rules. Alongside your reformation, you won't be missing out on the fun action that was mic-spamming. There is always two sides to a coin with jailbreak, I enjoy the laid-back proper wardening style where rounds are done with the intention to have fun and win, wheras others enjoy the Server 2 side of spamming and loud music. I think people get too engrossed in the 'funny loud mic spam day haha funny' and lose track of the original gameplay that jailbreak was. 

At the end of the day, it's good to see you wanting to make that first step in changing. The community won't change their attitude towards you unless you take that first step to changing yourself. I see far too many young and new players quit the server simply because we are too harsh towards them, but they instantly make themselves a target the second they start playing through mic-spam and such. Acknowledging you have a problem with your attitude and wanting to change is the first step to reformation (or deformation as per Gada).